D Day on the morrow

Tomorrow is the final decision day as to whether we will be outsourced or maintained. In some ways I will be glad when we are all out of limbo and have some direction, but of course on the other hand we don't want things to change - we want things to remain as they are. Some people, especially She Who is going to Kill me with Kindness, are having major psychological issues coping.  On the other hand, my assistant made an offer on a house today, so she is takng a leap of faith in her own survival!

I don't choose change this time around, especially in the present economic climate, though I would have between 5 and 6 months salary to take with me if I choose. When the final decision is made we'll have about 10 days to make our own decision as to which way to go...so many unknowns.

When I was 18 and had to have my eye removed due to the growth of a tumor, I was very angry for a long time. I was very angry at my God for doing this to me when I prayed it wouldn't happen. Bad God. As time went on I did see that there was actually an argument for the glass being half full, and not half empty. The tumor was contained in the eye and didn't spread, and nothing appeared in my remaining eye - it could have been worse.

So since then, I haven't ever asked my God for things for myself. All I ever ask is that I be taken to a place where I can be happy. And I have found over the years that despite the turmoil often along the way, that I have been taken to a place where I am happy - in work, and love, and life. The hard times have always been balanced by better times.

I am trusting this time will be the same. If I make the best of what comes my way, I hope that I am rewarded by being taken to a place where I will be happy. That is the prize at the end of the rainbow.