the not so invisible

I’m sorry. I don’t think I am different to you. I am an individual, but I am also the same as a good many other people. I am however narcissistic to a degree and I don’t think that is a bad thing. My narcissism is what creates and maintains my individualism and independence and allows me to survive in my world.

I do not feel that I have to inflate my individualism for fear of vanishing. I was born, thus I inherited the earth, what more do I need than that?

I also believe that the fact that I do not suffer from hugely inflated individualism makes me a solid, supportive partner, strong parent, reliable friend, and constant in an emergency. I like that about me and I think others appreciate it to.

As I matured through my forties I feared becoming invisible and vowed that I would not allow it to happen to me. I plotted and planned to stop it happening. I now know that it would never have happened, because just by living my life, living the big and the small things of everyday life and engaging with other people makes me visible. I crafted my own watermark just by living the life that I wanted.

So, going “placidly amid the noise and haste” has been the best thing for me. I don’t need to add to the cacophony to be a somebody or a something. I am already. A little individualistic flamingo dancing from time to time is just enough to keep the spirit glowing and the heart pumping.

Happy if you want to dance along.  We all have the same dance card.