7 posts tagged “change”

meeting and greeting

Thank you very much, yes I did have a lovely Mother's Day. I rang my Mum first up and wished her a Happy Day and promised to visit next weekend. Then Daughter 2 and I went to buy groceries - which may have actually turned into half a new wardrobe for her, and a couple of new clothing items for me....a girl's got to do what a girl's got to do!

Then we met Daughter1 and her future mother in law for afternoon tea (and a glass of wine!) We had not met before so it was the coming together of the mothers. I think we both enjoyed each other's company. We were alone at the end and so did the "your son is lovely", "your daughter is wonderful", we are so happy,  that parents should do....and luckily it was honestly meant on both sides. We are all so happy that this young couple are coming together - it just seems so right.

Now it is evening and I have to transform into the student again (one with new clothes to wear tomorrow though!) Hard to get my head around all these different hats I am wearing these days. So happy Mr FD visited his parents, armed with cakes and present, and I didn't have to stretch further.

Daughter2 was actually home with us all week as she has been very ill with a Campylobacter bacteria. Nothing like home when you are ill. She is 75% improved and so went back to her place tonight. It is quiet without her. It was nice having all three children home again all at once. Another month and Daughter1 moves into her own home and things will be different forever...it is nice, but  a little sad at the same time. I know it is the cycle of life, but our little family is changed and one stage of life over... We step with happy memories, confidence and joy into the next phase. 

Best Easter wishes

I couldn't help but notice over the last couple of days, how all the people I have observed have been quite buoyant and light of spirit. They appear to have an abundance of Easter Spirit. I have been teasing my little grey cell with this over the last day or two, and have come to the conclusion that people may actually enjoy Easter more than Christmas as there is none of the "have to" connected to Easter as there is to Christmas.

We don't have to visit family, or entertain, or gift shop until we drop and the credit card melts. Easter is our time. We can do what we please, we don't have to include family, and we don't have to spend money we don't really have.

Maybe we should rework Christmas...maybe just let Santa do his gift giving to the little ones and let all the rest go the way of old rituals that are no longer enjoyed. I mean we don't throw Christians to the lions anymore, do we? Sure people enjoyed it, but it grew tiresome and finding enough Christians was a bit of a trial after awhile, so out it went. Then we found football, and everyone was happy, right? No one misses the Christian throwing now do they? See, we can change this Christmas chaos, free ourselves to actually enjoy it...hop to it, people.

Voted to accept the outsourcing....what will be will be.

Tomorrow is the final decision day as to whether we will be outsourced or maintained. In some ways I will be glad when we are all out of limbo and have some direction, but of course on the other hand we don't want things to change - we want things to remain as they are. Some people, especially She Who is going to Kill me with Kindness, are having major psychological issues coping.  On the other hand, my assistant made an offer on a house today, so she is takng a leap of faith in her own survival!

I don't choose change this time around, especially in the present economic climate, though I would have between 5 and 6 months salary to take with me if I choose. When the final decision is made we'll have about 10 days to make our own decision as to which way to go...so many unknowns.

When I was 18 and had to have my eye removed due to the growth of a tumor, I was very angry for a long time. I was very angry at my God for doing this to me when I prayed it wouldn't happen. Bad God. As time went on I did see that there was actually an argument for the glass being half full, and not half empty. The tumor was contained in the eye and didn't spread, and nothing appeared in my remaining eye - it could have been worse.

So since then, I haven't ever asked my God for things for myself. All I ever ask is that I be taken to a place where I can be happy. And I have found over the years that despite the turmoil often along the way, that I have been taken to a place where I am happy - in work, and love, and life. The hard times have always been balanced by better times.

I am trusting this time will be the same. If I make the best of what comes my way, I hope that I am rewarded by being taken to a place where I will be happy. That is the prize at the end of the rainbow.

I think I am handling this week’s events all right. I have noticed though that I am doing things, tasks, and then completely forgetting that I did them, or doubting that I did it. I guess that is some form of stress creeping up on me. I don’t like it. I normally only forget trivial things, like my children’s names, so major stuff is not my style and a bit upsetting.

Spoke with MegaMegaBoss this morning, for what it is worth. He is sitting in his ivory tower somewhat upset because apparently everyone thinks he is the bad guy – gee you think? Guess who managed to still preserve himself a hunk of the kingdom?  Anyway for what his opinion is worth, little I know and less each passing day, but he is handling the buy out process, I am a major contender to be asked to stay, due to my knowledge and contacts. Of course under what conditions that might be offered is the 84 cent question isn’t it? Well, nothing to be lost I guess in waiting to hear what might or might not be. However to use the lingo I am going to scan my horizons and work the old network and see what else is out there – take command of my own destiny as far as possible etc, etc ETC! Steady she goes – unless I forget that I just decided to do that and then maybe some headless chicken dancing and heavy drinking might be more in order.  Alcoholics throughout the family tree so I reckon I could make myself a fine mess between now and the end of the year!

Doesn’t change suck when you aren’t ready for it?

Tuesday morning meeting in the Basement of Discontent

THE meeting called by MegaMegaBoss is tomorrow morning. General consensus is that it is not going to be good news. I have three scenarios :

1. Party over and everyone out of the pool - retrenchment for all, including FD!

2. Setting Boss's nonprofitable section afloat only (not my section) - maybe retrenchment or maybe outsourcing, but people gone either way.

3. Expanding my profitable section and adding the section that we have been given to take over to restructure and make a whole new and really innovative business. My section goes hand in hand with the to be taken over section, a bit like bread and butter, so I think they would have to keep us together.

My business, common sense, gut feeling is for option 3. However, every one has been seeing the grim reaper at the door all day and so now, tired and emotional, my anxiety has set in.

Staff in Boss section are all wearing black tomorrow, as in mourning, to show solidarity for each other. As I wear black quite a lot, now I don't know whether to wear black as I probably would have anyway, or go for colour just to lighten the mood. I may need to mourn too after all.

So the basement is not so much discontent as disconcerted and confused tonight...but tomorrow is another day and it will bring its own story.

Stay tuned

And for those who think I may be secretly relieved to not have a job...well I have a large house to feed and will have to work somewhere, so no retirement plans just yet.